I watched finished Liar Game two days ago! =)

The scenes that really made my heart skip a beat are not those of clever lies and plots of people, though they are indeed brilliant, but those scenes in which people finally chose to believe and trust and help each other!! Thus I really think the helping, the protecting, the trusting really make me like this show alot!!

Today, rare chance to be able to eat dinner with mummy and sister and she was saying about trust and some stuff. It makes me think... Seems like I have similar issues too. Sisters indeed... Mummy was also giving some advice and everything seems to be so difficult. It is indeed easier said than done.

My sister is having a hard time, especially with her CCA which is taking much of her time. But she is quite lucky as well and certain things are just not worth her troubles... Then, what about me?

Help. Protection. Trust. How nice. =)

Home is nice. Been staying home packing things and watching Liar Game. Liar Game is really an awesome show. Thanks to RT who introduced it to me about 2, 3years ago but I got to watch it only this week... =)

I chionged finished one season in one day and moving slowly for season 2. Somehow, the show struck me...

Liar Game, a game that shows how people are lying and hiding and defending from each other at all times. Is the world really that ugly? Is it really that everyone is always wearing a mask in front of others? Is there really not a way to have everyone happy in this world?

The main character 神崎直 said many things that are very meaningful though she appears to be a foolish girl to trusted everyone equally though they betrayed her again and again. I admire this character!

Indeed, in this world, many people will worry about betrayal and the greed of others leading to much distrust among people. But if you began distrusting people and people began distrusting others around them... Then where is the trust in this world? Everything started with "I". =)

SMILE and face the world the way you wanted them to face you. Somehow, the show made me reflected on how did I see others? Do I trust them? Do they trust me? A simple world is made complicated with all the greeds and everything.

If this game is played among primary school kids, I believe problems will not appear because everyone is just so pure and trusting of others. How nice. =)

Perhaps, being different in different front of different people does not make you a person whom cannot be trusted. As long as you are comfortable with who you are in front of that person, I think that it is enough.

Trust isnt that difficult after all. =)

终于，考完试了。已经放假一个多星期了，可是，心情却一直不太好。

累了，但不知道应该怎么去休息。

烦了，但不知道应该怎么去放松。

心情好。。。 心情坏。。。

好几天了，一直在做梦，而且没有一天能睡得好，或至少做个好梦。

这么多年来天天做梦，真的快要分不清什么是真的，什么是虚的了。

梦里的好像很真，真到我很怕。天天发生的事反而就像梦境，就连回想昨天发生的事，回忆让我怀疑是否是真的还是梦里的。

乱，混乱。心里一直不太平衡。想太多了。。。

这是连泪水都没有用，都难以表达的伤感。。。

还是当小孩子好，无忧无虑。

还是以前好，天气好，环境好。。。世界末日真的要来了吗？

期望越高，失望就会越大。

前面考的两门课，不知道会怎样？考试要完了，但还是还有两门课。已经没有心去温习了。累了，烦了。

突然很想很想海边，想宽阔的蓝天，想家，但我知道我也会想宿舍。心疲倦了，让我有点再想这些到底是为了什么？我的心静不下来，很乱很乱，我想大声地，破音地，唱歌！

读书不容易，虽然踏入社会会更不容易。一张文凭，一份工作，一个安定的生活，还是一个充满意义的生活。慌了，乱了。

我的蓝天大海，你在哪里？

This exam has been so much more stressful than last Semester's. I am really scared and worried and stress to my limit...

Really limit le.. I can feel myself falling into the endless pit. What have I been doing? What have I been wasting time on?

I cant take it anymore. Yet, I dont want the exam to come so soon since I am not very prepared. This Semester is so much more stressful. So many more things. I am worried I will just collapse somehow.

Tomorrow, please dont come...

Tomorrow, please end fast!!

仔细的看，用心去看，看到了吗？

你（们）真的看不到，还是没有看到你（们）想看的？

我只是一个路人，你不一定看得到我。

庆幸，还有人能和我一起开心。

庆幸，还有人能和我一起难过。

在发了这么多牢骚后，发现，我还是幸运的。

不能说别人但自己却身在福中不知福。。。

当然，只能等待。一直在等。。。

还是会，有所期待。莫名的，兴奋一下。

只能等待。一直在等。。。

我会一直等。。。

“做人要是没有目标，跟垃圾没有两样。”

我是垃圾。。。

Let nature takes it course...

But I really dont know what to do le...

If you see a cat with a live bird in its mouth, dont hesitate, chase the cat and save the bird even if it seems dying...

If you chase the cat, at least the bird has some slight chance of living. If you dont, it has no chance at all... Dont regret only upon seeing its body after that...

Dont be cruel... Dont stun...

*May the bird have a better life next life.*

I want to apologise... To my dear friends...

Sorry to have lose abit of temper on Monday just because I got kind of stress...

And the poor machine had to take all my nonsense just because of a small problem...

I often said I have controlled quite alot of my temper since Secondary school...

But obviously NOT!!

狮子座，真的是这样吗？

压抑着压力，到了极点后，真的会狮子发疯吗？

I want to learn... To control my temper especially at the worse-est worst times...

How...?

乱，更乱...

孤独，虽然不这么孤独了，但更孤独...

一开始就是的吧。

不知道该怎么办。还是要看自己怎么想？是自己让这变得难吧...

只是一个蝉蜕去的壳...

隐性。空。

我想念海边，想念让海水、海风冲走烦恼的那种感觉...

不哭，是坚强。但内心，是否是真的坚强？

想好好哭一场... 真的累了... 或许还是在乎太多了吧...

只是，还是会羡慕...

人总是贪心的，但要的，可能也就只是最简单的...

想自己去争取，但不知道该怎么做... 但，那又会是假吗？

空。

Sick. Still sick and missed school for two days..

School. Friends. My Cousins. My Family. Everyone else. The fun. The no fun. The wild. The quiet. The everything.

羡慕。还只能羡慕。只希望你能身在福中知道福。

I thought it was bad enough to be ' one person. Then there came the second. And now, the third.

Saw Gathering'06. Miss those times. Really do... Everything so simple and pure and simple. Fun. Nice. Fun. Even she is the way I prefer she to be.

What's the point. No one truly bothers. No one truly cares.

I hate the way i think... But I cannot control it.
Ha. Joke.

你还记得你刚刚和朋友开心聊天是几时吗？

你还记得你刚刚享用喜欢的食物是几时吗？

你还记得你刚刚看喜欢的电视剧是几时吗？

那...

你还记得你最近发脾气是几时吗？

你还记得你最近发牢骚是几时吗？

你还记得你最近不开心是几时吗？

还有...

你最近嫌身上没钱是几时呢？

你最近嫌生活倒霉是几时呢？

你最近嫌衣服不够是几时呢？

现在，深深呼吸。把手放在心脏的位置，感受你心跳的频率。

我们要庆幸，现在能吃，能喝，能拉，能坐在电脑前，能在家人的身边，和爱人，和朋友们，一起看到明天的阳光，一起迎接新的一天。

他，会错过今年的新年...

她，已错过了七年的新年...

地球不会因为少了一个好人而停止转动。时间还会走，明天还会来。我们要更珍惜身边的每个事物，要更珍惜身边的每个人。不管是好人，是坏人，始终是人。不要等到失去了之后才后悔。

生命短暂，但，世界依然美丽。请珍惜生命。

I am supposed to be studying quietly but somehow, I got the urge to just listen to perhaps a Disney song... And now... I had listened many songs for few hours.

Haha! Seems like I wanted to look for HOPE!! Gosh.. Exam stress...!

But ya... I forgot how much I have liked songs and dances... and Disney songs and Disney princesses! Hahaha!! The songs just make me feel much better! =)

Colours Of The Wind... Reflection... Under The Sea... Beauty And The Beast.... Even from the more recent Disney shows... Accidentally In Love... That's How You Know...

I feel young again! With innocence and hope and happiness... For the time being... =)

突然有想自甘堕落的感觉... 这才发现，我太软弱了。

一切在掌控之中，那为什么不好好安排？

虽是想得到那一点安慰，但，得不到或得到后，那又如何？一切还不是如此...

不是才了解，不要期望太高，失望才不会太深吗？那为何有如此？

时间不多了... 睡吧... 往逃避的方向去...

但回到现实后，就不能再停下来了... 就这么一天吧...

不要忘了之前自己最喜欢的那个成语：永不言败！

I am grateful!! I AM REALLY GRATEFUL!!

That's why I have always respected teachers! =)

Thank You So Much!! ^ ^

Somehow, I have this sudden feeling of safe-ness when with RuiTing and June. Even if they just with me, doing nothing. Standing by them makes me rather peaceful, happy. Haha.. Think I should have told Mrs Teng that I feel I'M weird ba...

I feel super bad! I feel super bad! I feel super bad! I FEEL SUPER BAD!

为什么！！以前不会的！！为什么！！

变了！是变了！没用！！烂人！烂死了！！

I seriously feel like banging my head against the wall!!

根本就思想还没成熟！可是，就连小孩子都不会这样！就连他们也会懂怎么做！不会这样不知礼仪！就像妈咪讲的，是不够 steady！

不过，也像妈咪说的，只要问心无愧就好！所以我决定了！一定要这样！！

真的好想回到以前，回到那还是天真无邪的时候。至少那时的我比较懂事...